I’m feeling bitter-sweet. Today brought good news and bad. I saw my doctor, and made a significant advance in my “transition” (which, by the way, is a fucked-up term that implies I’m not a woman already) which I was worried wouldn’t go through. So that’s great.
But then there’s this California thing. It was too much to hope that the CA Supreme Court would knock this wildly unconstitutional law down, but I wanted it to happen. I wanted the sea change it would bring. I wanted the progress for the country I think of as at least my spiritual home, if not my physical one. It hurts me that the law still stands.
And I know that for all the pain it causes me that an entire eighth of America considers me somehow not a human being, it’s so much worse for the gay people who actually have to live there. I can’t imagine what they’re going through, to have their hopes raised so high, and then dashed suddenly.
This world is messed up.
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